We Fight Not Against Men...

Okay...it seems that lately, all I'm doing is apologizing for not posting for so long, and I'm sorry again...it's just been one of those crazy months where extra time isn't easy to get at, and I can't find my camera transfer USB cord, so all the pretty summer pictures I've been taking I can't show you guys!




Hmmph. Depressing.




I suppose I have to resign to my fate as a few and far between blogger, I can now see how hard it is to fit the time in, which is unfortunate. I promise I will post more when fall gets here, when the craziness is done.




I know it's not fair too you guys, and I am so sorry :( I'm really gonna try to post more often, so could you guys hang with me? This is a weird time in my life, and I'm trying to figure out alot of stuff, so if I'm going a bit AWOL--I'm totally not abandoning you guys! :)









I've been trying to figure out who I am...and that's not easy stuff for a girl to handle. On one hand, I'm thirteen, I feel pretty close to being a adult, but in so many ways, I'm still a kid. I'd rather play then work, I love to daydream and dance to music, and just be silly like that. But I can't afford to be like that much longer. How do you get a growth spurt on something like growing up? How do i get from being silly and just whatever, do being serious and dedicated and mature and all that stuff. A career, and college life, all that stuff seems so far away. But I know that's no excuse. I need to prepare for all that and grow up...but how? I feel like such a loser for having a problem like, most homeschoolers I know are so out there and so prepared and know what they are doing with their life's. How come I can't be like that?


Why is it harder for me to be focused, to not get distracted and procrastinate?


Plus lately it seems like two parts of me have been warring the part of me that knows what I SHOULD be doing, and another just wants to do whatever, and is concerned with stupid stuff. I know I can't get where I want to go without hard work, but where do I really want to go?


I know I must sound like a spongy flob but I believe I should be totally honest in my blog.


I mean who wants to read a blog about a perfect person who has it all together? I know I have flaws, and I am perfectly ready to admit them too you guys.





It's weird with me. The reason I' kinda a flob in the growing up and stuff department, is for the longest time improving what I looked like was the most important thing to me. And everything else kinda fell by the wayside. I know that's not the right way to think like that, but that's just how it was for a long while, and I'm not gonna lie and say it isn't still impacting me today, even if it shouldn't.
I don't know what my mental block is, and why my appearance and self esteem and stuff seems to hold so much of my attention and focus, but it does, and I know it shouldn't.
When I think about it and talk about it, it just happens subconsciously. But I seriously do need to get a grip on it. I want my better side to win, my hardworking, dependable, focused and mature side, but it seems lately that my will is anything but strong, and my flesh is so weak.

So that's basically why I haven't been posting as much, just wrestling with alot of stuff inside, plus all the regular in and outs in life. I would appreciate some prayer...because I really do want my good side to win, and hopefully. With God's help, it will!!
As far as posting goes, I'm going to be doing smaller posts more often...can't really write novels everyday...but little tidbits I can give you guys :)
Sound good?
Sorry about going all crazy on you guys...but at least now you know why! :)
Love you guys!
Victoria

O.M.G.

Wow, when i looked at the date of my last post I nearly fainted. I'm sorry! Almost 2 months! *eep* SORRY! Haha but I have been...SO busy. Really. School's out now...and I have been really busy.


AND AND AND AND...I am just so exciting about so many things. One of the things being...I may have found something that really helps my face.


And it's cheap.


And you can get it nearly anywhere.


Guess what it is?





.......


HYDROGEN PEROXIDE.








Yeah..it sounds weird, but hear me out. So I was on http://www.acne.org/ and researching "home remedies" in their reviews section, and came across hydrogen peroxide, and was like, "What??"


So i checked it out, and ALOT of people have had success with it...plus check out the youtube video below this post. It's astonishing.

Isn't it amazing how much that helped?? So after that I knew I had to try it, and I've been using it for....oh, around four days, and I have seen a difference! The redness and swelling has gone down, so that I'm even going out with make-up! I can't wait to keep using it!
It's really easy, I just use it in place of my old toner, put it on a cotton round and just swab it on my face. It doesn't sting, I've only got the 3% hydrogen peroxide, which is really what everyone should be usin so it doesn't irritate your skin.
Research it, you might be suprised! We already had it in the house, so i decided I should try it, and boy have I not regretted it!
Soooo gonna keep a usin it and keep YOU GUYS updated :)
Well, not really a bunch of new awesome stuff to report...
So all in all, an AMAZING tho incredibly busy weekend :) What happened in ya'lls weekend?
That was mine, fun, crazy, draining, emotional, and likea roller coaster

Yeah. Kinda like that :)

Have a great rest of the Saturday girls :)

Who, Me? It Couldn't Be, mon Cheri...

Hello my lovely bloggerinas!!
First things first. The title? Yeah I have no idea where that came from. Popped into my mind, and I was like "Wow...that rhymed!!" and wrote it down. Such is the blessedness of randomness.
Second things second. I am dressed similarly to Demi Lovato today!! Have you all seen the Sonny With A Chance episode called 'Walk a Mile in My Shoes'? Well it's one of my favorite episodes because it's just hilarious. But towards the end of the episode, Demi is shown wearing a simple outfit of a yellow t-shirt with dark wash skinny jeans. Yup that's me today, except I am wearing dark thermal pants and a orange t-shirt BUT I do have a yellow shirt and dark wash skinny jeans in my room!!! I so admire Demi's style...so I was so thrilled when I found out I have the same outfit as her ( even if it was an accident!!).
So. Third things third.
CrAZy pICturEs!!!
(yeah that whole switching caps thing annoys me too. heehee)


So I have always wanted to do that whole mustache thing...so tonight I finally did. Haha I felt like a stereotypical Italian pizza maker :)

Extreme happiness in nose-wrinkly form :) I can be giddy at times. This is photographic evidence.

I could not escape the power of the mustache. IT CONSUMED ME!!

(yeah. I'm hyper today)

(ignore the hair. It is night. my hair is unruly. I plead for mercy.)

"Say WHAAAATT??"

My outfit I am wearing........