AWESOME BLOG!!!

Hey you guys!!!!!! Umm just a little qucik post....to let you know about an awesome blog!!!!!!!!
It's name is called A Modest Fashion Blog: What I wear, What I Do, And Why I Did It!!! I LOVE IT!!!! Well anyway I love that blog and just wanted to let you know that!! So go too it!!! LOL!!!!

Love,
Victoria

We Fight Not Against Men...

Okay...it seems that lately, all I'm doing is apologizing for not posting for so long, and I'm sorry again...it's just been one of those crazy months where extra time isn't easy to get at, and I can't find my camera transfer USB cord, so all the pretty summer pictures I've been taking I can't show you guys!




Hmmph. Depressing.




I suppose I have to resign to my fate as a few and far between blogger, I can now see how hard it is to fit the time in, which is unfortunate. I promise I will post more when fall gets here, when the craziness is done.




I know it's not fair too you guys, and I am so sorry :( I'm really gonna try to post more often, so could you guys hang with me? This is a weird time in my life, and I'm trying to figure out alot of stuff, so if I'm going a bit AWOL--I'm totally not abandoning you guys! :)









I've been trying to figure out who I am...and that's not easy stuff for a girl to handle. On one hand, I'm thirteen, I feel pretty close to being a adult, but in so many ways, I'm still a kid. I'd rather play then work, I love to daydream and dance to music, and just be silly like that. But I can't afford to be like that much longer. How do you get a growth spurt on something like growing up? How do i get from being silly and just whatever, do being serious and dedicated and mature and all that stuff. A career, and college life, all that stuff seems so far away. But I know that's no excuse. I need to prepare for all that and grow up...but how? I feel like such a loser for having a problem like, most homeschoolers I know are so out there and so prepared and know what they are doing with their life's. How come I can't be like that?


Why is it harder for me to be focused, to not get distracted and procrastinate?


Plus lately it seems like two parts of me have been warring the part of me that knows what I SHOULD be doing, and another just wants to do whatever, and is concerned with stupid stuff. I know I can't get where I want to go without hard work, but where do I really want to go?


I know I must sound like a spongy flob but I believe I should be totally honest in my blog.


I mean who wants to read a blog about a perfect person who has it all together? I know I have flaws, and I am perfectly ready to admit them too you guys.





It's weird with me. The reason I' kinda a flob in the growing up and stuff department, is for the longest time improving what I looked like was the most important thing to me. And everything else kinda fell by the wayside. I know that's not the right way to think like that, but that's just how it was for a long while, and I'm not gonna lie and say it isn't still impacting me today, even if it shouldn't.
I don't know what my mental block is, and why my appearance and self esteem and stuff seems to hold so much of my attention and focus, but it does, and I know it shouldn't.
When I think about it and talk about it, it just happens subconsciously. But I seriously do need to get a grip on it. I want my better side to win, my hardworking, dependable, focused and mature side, but it seems lately that my will is anything but strong, and my flesh is so weak.

So that's basically why I haven't been posting as much, just wrestling with alot of stuff inside, plus all the regular in and outs in life. I would appreciate some prayer...because I really do want my good side to win, and hopefully. With God's help, it will!!
As far as posting goes, I'm going to be doing smaller posts more often...can't really write novels everyday...but little tidbits I can give you guys :)
Sound good?
Sorry about going all crazy on you guys...but at least now you know why! :)
Love you guys!
Victoria

Blue Fog

Hey girls!


I'm sorry I haven't been writing as much, I have been insanely busy, especially this weekend...I'm still exhausted from it all. It was alot of fun though, going shopping with my Mom, and going fishing and meeting new people..that's always good, huh?
Well, the weekend was good, but I'm afraid today was one of those days that's rather ho-hum. You know those kinda days, where the weather is cloudy, and your hair refuses to corporate, and you have to wake up early to get to class, and you don't feel like doing any work?

I guess I could chalk it up to post--summer vacation blues, and the funny thing is, my summer vacation so far isn't all that relaxing, It is fun, hanging out with friends and shopping and all that good stuff, but I got pretty sick of constantly running around, staying up late and then randomly waking up early...my body must have been still in school-mode, because I just can't sleep in for the life of me!
So while it wasn't really a RELAXING summer vacation so far, it was fun, good and bad parts of t's alike.
I don't have anything super exciting to report, except a few things God has been showing me that I want to share with all you guys.

The main thing is...that I need to focus more. I tend to be kinda ADHD..I don't have the disorder, but I tend to be kind of space-y and easily distracted, especially when it comes to things like reading magazines instead of studying, or watching YouTube videos instead of cleaning my room, or whatever. Basically, I'm a procrastinator in alot of areas of life and I seriously need to quit.

Any advice for a girl who is having trouble focusing? I'm about to start eliminating some areas, like keeping my phone away from me so I won't be tempted to play around with it while doing school, and making a point to clean my room every night so it doesn't get all piled up, and making a point not to have a boyfriend while in high school so I wont get all distracted by boy issues. (Besides, it doesn't make sense to date in high school anyway. We're all about to go off to college...ther's no way the relationship would work, what with the different settings and separation and all that. It's just a decision I've made.) But I still end up staring into space, or listening to music or whatever. It's just the normal everyday stuff, boring assignments, and math and American goverment..it's all I can do to keep myself from spacing out and doing whatever.
I don't want to be a space-case lazy butt, and I'm trying to work on it. Any advice girls? Cause I'm not doing so hot with this self motivation stuff.

Another thing that's really been slamming me in the face lately is HOW much people don't notice the flaws I get so bothered about. Like at my cousins house last week, I kept moaning about how not clear my face was, and after one of my friends text me later that day, and told me how beautiful my face looked that day.
You could have knocked me over with a feather. Why can't i see what everybody else sees? Well, I guess God is just trying to tell me, loud and clear, " You don't have to worry about your skin. Just be confidant and be yourself, and it'll be okay."
And so far, it's been working...but then again, whenever God says something, it's always been true, why should I doubt him now?
So those have been the main things on my mind...now I'm off into the land of make-up!


Adios :)
Love and huggles,
Victoria

(fog pictures not my own.)

Oh Happy Day :)

Just. Look. At. That. Face.

How could anybody, ANYBODY, ever say no to that face?

Yeahh.. I am SUCH a sucker for my dog...I mean...those EYES and the perky little ears...

AW!!

Cool people can wear pirate patches...and totally pull it off!!! :)

And these faces...PRICELESS :P (P.S. Only a place like Sir Gooney's has pirate patches.)

So. Onto the story of the day :)

Well as most of you know, I am on summer vacation (out of school) and today has been fabulous. Sometimes I moan about being homeschooled, and how people give you weird looks when you tell them, and how you can't really be on sports teams, or miss out on stuff like seeing your friends every single day.

But really, when I think about it, I'm super lucky. I have so much freedom, and although I don't want to stereotype or generalize, I have typically found that homeschoolers ten to be more down to earth then most public schoolers I know. Of course, there are exceptions to rule, like my amazing friend Kristina, but most of the time, I hav found the above to be true.

Especially the guys. I dunno what it is, but the guys they are so nice and smart and SENSIBLE. Sensible sounds weird, but compared to most teenage guys I know,they are just really down to earth and smart. They don't take stupid risks, or brag about themselves, or talk about basketball all the time, or heaven forbid, talk about hot girls.

I can actually carry on a innteligent conversation with them, and they are so mature and it's just so refreshing!! Sorry about the slight rant...but i just get so tired sometimes of stupid guys. Their rude, and there totally self absorbed. It's so nice to be able to have guys as friends that you can actually TALK with, not just roll your eyes at.

OH WELL!!! LOL!!!

Well I can't wait till tomorrow...I'm going swimming!!

Loooove,

Victoria

Neon Shines Through Smokey Eyes

Have you ever felt a connection with a song? Like, everytime you listen to it, you get goosebumps, and it just speaks to you, somewhere deep inside?
Well. That's what the song in the last post does for me.

And yes...I know there is refrences to being drunk in there, please don't think I'm accepting that behavior, i just love the haunting lyrics, Dave Matthews heart stopping voice, and the guitar woven through it all. I don't know why, but I could listen to this song all day long.
Anyways just wanted to share that song with you guys, since it's my new obsession :)
I've been thinking about hair today, wanted to share my ideas with you guys!!

First idea: Side Pony.

My hair is super thick, so side ponys tend to look cute, I would straighten the top, and then define the curls on the bottom with curlers ora curling iron or something. It's a super simple, elegant. and I would make it cuter but addinga flower to it, too dress it up a little bit. :)

Another idea I've been thinking about.

The beautiful fishtail braid.

I would starighten all my hair, then braid it fishtail style. I love dresses that have the mermaid-y style, so I think both these hairstyles would look great with that, and i could do them both myself, so no need to spen big bucks on hair.

The first hair style is more formal and pretty, while the fishtail is sexy and carefree...I like them both, and shall try them both out to see which one I like best :) Gosh I just love occasions like weddings. It's so fun to get all fancy once...especially since it's something I rarely ever do.

As far as my day today? It's been good :) SO not much drastic news to report about me personally, exept that I can't wait till to tomorrow to go to the pool, and I apologize about the lack of photos...ack! There's just not enough time in one day! :'(

The days shoould be extended to at least 30 hours so we could get everything done, huh?

Have a great rest of the week!

Love,

Victoria

Neon Shines Through Smokey Eyes..Part 1

Butterfly

Had a poem lolling about in my head...decided to peep out into the real world :)





Butterfly





The light is too bright,


it cuts into her eyes,


Where is she?


Only known a world full of darkness,


Queit, soft and secure.


Now the air blows sharply against her skin,


Her newfound universe bekoning her in,


Just a child in a much to big world...





She grows lithe and limber,


Mind full of brightly reflected rainbows,


A prism, scattering happiness wherever she goes...


Some of that innocence is broken,


She loses some of that young spark,


A green stem that supported her for so long,


A blinding mask,


A desire to fit in,


Incapacitates her in it's terrible grip.





Someday, somewhere,


There's gotta be a choice,


A way to put her foot down,


Just say that's enough,


She's done with her own limitations,


Her own failed design,


She can't try anymore or she'll lose her ever-lovin mind...





So he wraps her in his chrysalis,
Spins her into his silky security,
Never letting go no matter how hard she struggles,
Cause he knows it's for her best...
He won't let her walk that road alone,
He knows that times are hard,
Left in the dark and binding garb,
Wondering how she will emerge,
For the better or for the worse?

Let her fly, let her soar,
Let her walk her steps,
She needs to grow up
And don't just leave it all to fortune and chance,
She'll work hard for every privledge,
She pleads to have,
A price tag is unwrapped...
Don't let go of him who let you fly,
Cherish the words he spoke in your mind,
Don't waste a day in what, in the end,
Cannot be had, or held into...
Choose wisley my little one,
Before away you'll fly....