Everybody's Dancin Dancin Crazy....

Hey girlios!! Yeah yeah I know, not a real word, but heyyy...it's called a poetic liscense and I use it ALOT :) My life has been full of randomness, summer, swimming, just general stuff :)
I have had kind of a decision\revalationtype of thannngg... :)

SO. TEH REVELATION.

(btw, I have been replacing the with 'teh' lately...no it's not a mispelling..it's pronounced how it's spelled and it's totally *awesome*)

Okay....back to business.

I have decided to learn how to be more...feminine?

I'm not sure what to call it.

But for pretty much all my life, I've been kind of a tomboy. You know, the whole barefooted, runnig around in the woods, made stuff out of mud, kind of deal.

In a way...I'm still like that. And sometimes..since i'm about to turn fourteen, it's kind of embarassing. I'm tired of never knowing what to wear (or ever really HAVING anything to wear) or what the heck to do with my hair, my face...just everything.

I'm going to be in highschool this coming year, im growing up..it's time to start looking like it!

*major shopping trip is predicted*

Hopefully tomorrow!!

And I have my cheeta eyes set on these leeeeetle prizes...

*hemhem* Cardigans from Old Navy

And dresses...gosh I need these so bad!! With summer comin and all..actually down here..summer is already here starting tomorrow!!

Aw :)

And SKIRTS...I have like no skirts.

And pretty much anything from American Eagle is totally amazing..

Sooo pretty :)

Plus, a shirt like this which will go with anything...ties the whole outfit together.

I don't know..I feel like my outfits are so random...I have bits and pieces from everywhere, but nothing that really goes together. I have a bunch of jeans..but I'm sick of wearing them.

My goal is to get a bunch of pieces that work together..more plannin my outfits then just randomly buying what I like then coming home and realizing it doesn't go with anything!

I love these options from Tilly's too :)

I also find myself buying the same thing over and over again..same colors, same cuts, same prints...I'm daring myself to go bold!

Like this bright red number..

Or this fun loose cut that I hardly ever wear...

(My..I do like Wet Seal!!)

Plus, I hardly have any of those little things that tie outfits together like tights...

and this cute little owl necklace...

Awww and rainbows too!! Haha

And of course..shoes... I just love these from Kohls'!!

And these sooo cute!

And these sneakers are awesome too!

And these are just beyond awesomely cool :)

Sorry that's alot of clothes to show you guys..I'm just really excited.

It feels like I'm turnin a new leaf, and it's a good leaf. I'm tired of being casual, and of not knowing how to dress the best I can. With a bit of shopping, and help with the ever handy Seventeen magazine.. (note: I am not supporting the magazines morals, which aren't great, but simply saying they have great style advice)

I'm going to change into a diva, don't worry...just a more polished, feminine version of me, and one I am very excited to get started on.

So that's my revelation!! Stay tuned for outfit pics after I go shopping!

Love,

Victoria :)

Musings Under a Spring Sun

Hello girls...gahhh has it really been over five days since my last post? Really? I know I have neglected you all, I aplogize...but it has been a truly stressful weekend, I can assure you.
I have been wrestling with alot of emotions inside of me, guilt, shame, unworthiness, and last night they all just came bubbling out when I was talking to my parents.
It was kinda like the lancing of an old wound, and it was hard, but it felt good. I had just been dealing with stuff like feeling different from everyone else, having a tough time in school and alot of other stuff.
It's just been hard...and I had no idea really what to write on here "Im emotionally overwhelmed?? Thus I am in my pajamas all day long and reading wayyyy to much?"
THAT wouldn't have been good. So I decided to save my post until I wasn't so stressed out....which is now :)
So, I took some pictures outside, spring has been coming in full force and everything is green and beautiful...just wanted to show you guys!! It's kinda a self portrait thing...

Lie upon the carpet of the world, green with a luster, borne of tears from the heavens...

Think thoughts that dared to never enter before, as you stare into the sunlight, the universe's core...

Laugh as the wind blows, dance as the earth revolves, sing as leaves tremble on their branches...

And whatever you do, don't take yourself too seriously, in the end what does it matter, if you conformed tot he wishes of the ever spinning culture, dreaming of tomorrow, today.

Sometimes you'll get confused, quite muddeled and befuddled, Trust the Father who had a plan, before the world drew it's first breath, and the sun first shot it's beams into a dark and void universe...

Know who you are, no matter what they say, you're a Child of The King, flaws can be mended, for nothing is impossible without God...

Just never, oh never, oh never forget...how much He loves you....

This is my message to all you girls out there, no matter what you are struggling with, HE LOVES YOU...never let go of that, no matter what you are dealing with.

I promise I'll be posting more...just giveing life some time to settle down.

I love you girls, so very very much :)

All my Love and God's Blessings,

Victoria

Spring

Okay. I know. It has been like a month since I did an actual post. But seriously. And that's me, hoping you enjoy these pictures and have a happy rest of the week!

Could it be magic?

So. Another update on my wild road to clear skin...and my goodness has it been wild, and extremely emotional. This past week especially so. I have never broken down so many times about my skin before, EVER. I felt like crying all the time, my poor paretns must have thought I was crazy.
It was like I had completely hit rock bottom and despair, and I was just crying out to God and begging him to somehow, some way, make it better.
Then. It actually did. I was looking at some old pictures, like from last spring, and noticed how, even when i was freaking out about my skin then, it really REALLY wasn't that bad. So. I am now trying to keep my skin super clear. Of course, I'm not back to my original clearness, but I am ALOT better then I was last week...so I am going to buy some new stuff and try it out....so I'll keep you guys posted!!
The products I am using right now is Clean and Clear face wash and Clean and Clear mostrizer.
So that's my little update :) I'll let you guys know how it's progressing!
Love,
Victoria

Hi guys! It's actually the 24th today, so this is kind of a post script or add on note to the post I did yesterday...I didn't really get a chance to elaborate on it, since I was a bit stressed at the time, so I'll do today :)
The stuff I need to buy i haven't yet, but the stuff i am using is a really awesome system, I've been using for about four/five days now, and I am MASSIVELY clear-er then I was last week. I have one pimple on my nose area, that has a head, but I dare not to pop it, so I'm kinda just waiting till it goes away, and a couple on my forehead and one or two on my cheek but that's pretty much it.
Basically, my only problem is my picking habit...I definately don't do that as much as I used too, I'm working on it, escpecially since picking doesn't get rid of the problem...new zitts just come up later to replace them. I haven't had any new big breakouts, just tiny ones that are really easy to cover up and go away in a day or two anyways.
My goal is to get back to looking like this:

This was me in March (I think) of last year...I don't think I have any make-up on...
And this:

In this one I had make-up on...But you can see the differnence. I don't know what I did to keep my skin so clear. True it did get a little worse in the summer...but mostly it looked like this:

Pink hair, odd pic I know, but i mostly just broke out on my chin and under my nose, VERY rarely on my forehead and cheeks.

My goal is too get back to that, of course it will take alot of time, but i am totally willing to be patient, now that I see maybe that will work for me. I only wish i had discovered it sooner.

Oh and don't think because my skin was clear back then that I was happy with myself. Nope.

I hated my teeth and I was in the process of losing weight and still am. SO I was a total basket case about that. I wish i could have appriecated my skin, but I didn't. Well, I'm on the road to recovery...and you guys are along for the ride! Fun. huh?

I'll keep ya'll posted!

Love (again),

Victoria

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Random FPOTD!!!

Yep. FPOTD! (Favorite Pic Of The Day), reserved for those girlie bloggers out there who simply cannot write looooooooooooong novels everyday telling the highly awesome intrestingness of their lives!
So. My favorite pic today is a self portrait, and while, in a photographical sense, isn't too amazing, but I really think it captures the essence of ME.
Like I said, not too photographically awesome, but I love it cause it's so me. The cute hat, the huge smile, and happy smiling eyes.
It's me in the sense that I just love being free and joyful. I am a stylish kinda girl!! I know how to put an outfit together!! I will never be one of those girl who straighten their hair to perfection, or who wears a TON of make-up. I'm just me.
It's just me flaws and all, take me or leave me, because I don't intend on changing for anyone. Besides, I love this photo cause I think it shows the joy that God has given me. I love to laugh and smile. That's who I am, and I think this photo represents that :)

Well that's my news! Hope you guys have a super amazing Sunday!!
Love,
Victoria

A Day Like Honey And Butter

Because everybody knows that honey butter biscuits-- are totally awesome!! I just had some...and they were delicious :) But anyway, today has been pretty much like that. I had all the time in the world to do school and some of the other stuff I love to do--like blog!!
So here are my promised pictures!! My Mom took the sunset pictures.....isn't she a good photographer!!??

Yes, the famous sunset in my front yard.

I thought this picture was so cool!! I just LOVE sunsets!!!

This is one of the pretty sunset pictures!!!

This picture of me is odd I know!! But I was trying a new hair mask thing!! It made my hair totally smooth!!! I put honey,egg and rosemary in my hair!! And then washed it out if you want the recipe tell me in a comment!! I did the hair thing the other day or so....and the sunset pictures was a few days ago too!

So that is my day..more pictures coming soon!

Have an awesome day!

Love,

Victoria

I have a tag!!!

4 Things found In My Bag:

books
pen
hairband
nintendo DS

4 Things Found In My Purse:

my change purse
a few random coins
chapstick
pencil

4 Favorite Things In My Room:

My Vanity Table
my poster
my make-up :)
my bed

4 Things I've Always Wanted To Do:

Swim in the ocean without geting totally freaked out!!!!!
Ride a roller coaster 50 times in a row
Have a photo shoot with a bunch of friends with an awesome camera
go to the mall for 5 hours and come home with a carload of awesome clothes!!!!!

4 Things I'm Currently Into:

blogging (duh)
reading my Bible
trying to think of a good way to raise money
dreaming about having my own camera (which might be a possibility...............)

4 Things I Bet You Didn't Know About Me:

One of my thumbs is longer then the other..............I don't know why
I really love to laugh
I want an amusement park to be in my backyard
I love to do photo shoots

4 Songs I can't get out of my head:

Party In The USA by Miley Cyrus
Kissen You by Miranda Cosgrove
Today is The Day The Lord Hath Made by ?
BAM by Miranda Cosgrove

I Tag anyone that is 15 or going to be 15 this year