Musings Under a Spring Sun

Hello girls...gahhh has it really been over five days since my last post? Really? I know I have neglected you all, I aplogize...but it has been a truly stressful weekend, I can assure you.
I have been wrestling with alot of emotions inside of me, guilt, shame, unworthiness, and last night they all just came bubbling out when I was talking to my parents.
It was kinda like the lancing of an old wound, and it was hard, but it felt good. I had just been dealing with stuff like feeling different from everyone else, having a tough time in school and alot of other stuff.
It's just been hard...and I had no idea really what to write on here "Im emotionally overwhelmed?? Thus I am in my pajamas all day long and reading wayyyy to much?"
THAT wouldn't have been good. So I decided to save my post until I wasn't so stressed out....which is now :)
So, I took some pictures outside, spring has been coming in full force and everything is green and beautiful...just wanted to show you guys!! It's kinda a self portrait thing...

Lie upon the carpet of the world, green with a luster, borne of tears from the heavens...

Think thoughts that dared to never enter before, as you stare into the sunlight, the universe's core...

Laugh as the wind blows, dance as the earth revolves, sing as leaves tremble on their branches...

And whatever you do, don't take yourself too seriously, in the end what does it matter, if you conformed tot he wishes of the ever spinning culture, dreaming of tomorrow, today.

Sometimes you'll get confused, quite muddeled and befuddled, Trust the Father who had a plan, before the world drew it's first breath, and the sun first shot it's beams into a dark and void universe...

Know who you are, no matter what they say, you're a Child of The King, flaws can be mended, for nothing is impossible without God...

Just never, oh never, oh never forget...how much He loves you....

This is my message to all you girls out there, no matter what you are struggling with, HE LOVES YOU...never let go of that, no matter what you are dealing with.

I promise I'll be posting more...just giveing life some time to settle down.

I love you girls, so very very much :)

All my Love and God's Blessings,

Victoria