GIVEAWAY!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey everyone!!! First off it's almost CHRISTMAS!!!!! YAY!!!!! And there is a giveaway going on over at much love, illy. Here is the link: http://muchlove-illy.blogspot.com/2011/12/sponser-love-giveaway-with-soak-tree.html It is a giveaway, for crocheted headbands!!

in which I'm like, a total downer.

(In case you wonder, the pictures in this post have NOTHING to do with whats written. Well, except the one. You'll figure it out.)
~It's impossible for me to live my life without trying to please everyone around me. Of course, that doesn't mean that if your my friend trying to get me to do something "bad", I'm going to do it to make you happy. Nah. But if your my friend, and you want me to where a $200 dress that is anything but flattering on me on your wedding, I just can't say no. Even if I end up in tears over it. Because I want you to be happy.
Ever once in a while I wish i'd be kinda a jerky person who's all like "Hellooo, I am NOT a size 2, that dress is not made for me!!!" but no. I accept it. I smile. I mean, who cares right? I'll just stop eating, and start excercising for the next 5 months, constantly. That way I'm not completely disgusting.
*sigh* One more $200 bridesmaid dress I shall be crying over. I'm so vain sometimes it makes me sick.
Oh gosh. I'm gonna end up like that girl on "27 dresses" who has 27 ridiculous bridesmaid dresses in her closet, who's pining after a guy who doesn't love her, and who ends up singing "Benny and the Jets" ina bar in the middle of nowhere after her car breaks down. Oh, no, please no!


~I expect too much from everyone around me. I really do. I mean, I give and give and give...why should you give anything in return? You shouldn't. Really. It's too much to ask.

~Rain, rain, rain, rain. Please. Your time has come and gone. It's snows turn to stop in for a while. So rain, rain, please go away? Come back in a few months?

~ Once Upon A Time is absolutely, postively my new favorite show. I don't think there's ever been a show that I waited for week after week like this one. It's just so romantic. *sigh* Prince Charming is just so...Prince Charming. Brought to life! Be still my heart.

~The dog is creepishly watching me from the landing on the stairs, his eyes are like staring into my soul...I think this is my cue to go to bed. Good night world. May tomorrow be a brighter,optimistic day!

Love, Victoria

Butterfly

Had a poem lolling about in my head...decided to peep out into the real world :)

Butterfly

The light is too bright,
It cuts into her eyes,
Where is she?
Only known a world full of darkness,
Queit, soft and secure.
Now the air blows softly against her skin,
Her new found universe beckoning her in,
Just a child in a much too big world...


She grows lithe and limber,
Mind full of brightly reflecting rainbows,
A prism, scatering happiness wherever she goes...
Some of that innocence is broken,
She loses some of that young spark,
The green stem that supported her for so long,
A blinding mask,
A desire to fit in,
Incapacitates her in it's terrible grip.

Someday, somewhere,
There's gotta be a choice,
A way to put her foot down,
Just say that's enough,
She's done with her own limitations,
Her own failed design,
She can't try anymore or she'll lose her ever-lovin mind...

So he wraps wrapes her in his chrysalis,
Spins her into his silky security,
Never letting go no matter how hard she struggles,
Cause he knows it's for her best...
He won't let her walk that road alone,
He knows that time is hard,
Left in the dark and binding garb,
Wondering how she will emerge,
For the better or for worse?

Let her fly, let her soar,
Let her walk her steps,
She needs to grow up
And don't just leave it all to fortune and chance,
She'll work hard for every privledge,
She pleads to have,
A price tag is unwrapped...
DOn't let go of him who helped you fly,
Cherish the words he spoke in your mind,
DOn't waste a day of what, in the end,
Cannot be had, or held into...
HChose wisley my little one,
Before away you'll fly....

Let's Get To Know Each Other AKA As A Very Cool Question Thing

I got this froma girl's blog ..... :) But anyway she did this so i am going to also.

What is your blog address? www.victoriasgirlygirlcorner.blogspot.com
When you first saw the movie elf, did you think that the Mr. Narwhal was going to be a bad guy and eat Buddy?YES. Yes I did. But he didn't and now he's, like, my favorite character other than Buddy himself.
Do you have a preference between green and purple grapes?Purple grapes taste a whole lot better according to me.
Have you ever eaten Spam? Yes I have.
If so, do you like it? It's okay...not my favorite
What is your favorite day of the week? WEDNESDAY! I LOVE WEDNESDAYS!!!
Are you sick right now? Coughing snoriting sneezeing and not lovin it, So yes.
Nicknames are cool. Do you have one? I have several nickanames.... Tori, Hummingbird, Sweetheart, Tooter, Tora and Tia.
What did you eat for lunch? Peanut Butter Sandwhich and a glass of water.
What's your favorite school subject? Hmm... if I do well on math, probably that. But if I don't, than it's my least favorite subject.
Do you like acting?I used to act out any kind of book I read lol... and it was fun for a while. But I haven't done much acting other than that.
Do you like to color?Yes! Unfortunately I'm a horrible artist... but I do like to color!
Would you agree that Monday is the armpit of the week?YES. YESYESYES. That's a good way to describe it. :)
What's currently your FAVORITE blog? I don't really have an absolute favorite blog... I love every one I read! And I know that sounds like I'm just trying to be fair, but it's true. I read so many blogs I love that I could never pick a favorite!
Food that you could live off of? BREAD. I love bread.
Do you believe socks with the day of the week on them will become a new trend? Um... I don't really know! Probably not? I've haven't seen too many of them before... :)

THE END.

No Strings Attached

One of the most powerful sermons I have ever heard closed with these challenging words, "Why should we come to Jesus Christ? Not for our own benefit. We should honor and serve and love and give our lives to Jesus Christ even if we were to go to hell at the end of the road...because He is worthy!" (Paris Reidhead, Ten Shekels and a Shirt, www.sermonindex.org )

It's amazing how the act of 'surrender' can become all about us. A woman once wrote me an e-mail expressing her hurt and confusion because she made a bargain with God -- "If I surrender my dreams of romance to You and live in purity, then I expect You to eventually write a beautiful love story to me." And since it hasn't happened yet, she feels that God has let her down.

Christ loved us without expecting us to love him in return. As he lay dying on the cross, those He had come to save were mocking and spitting in His face. Can we love Him the way He loved us? Can we surrender everything to Him without expecting anything in return?

I have discovered throughout my life that our Lord cares deeply about our dreams and desires of our heart, and He takes great joy in meeting them in His own perfect time and way. Surrendering to Him is not drudgery, but delight. As we abide in Him, He changes and shapes the desires of our heart to match with His desires for us. As it says in Psalms 37:4

Following His pattern doesn't leave us with a second-rate version of life on this earth, but far more glorious, beautiful, and fulfilled one. And yet, even though having the specific desires of our heart fulfilled is very often a byproduct of surrender to Christ, it cannot be our reason for poring out our all at His precious feet. Our reason must be passionate love for Him, with no strings attached.

Surrendering Even The Good Things

Hey everyone, first I just want to say i am terribly sorry for not posting in such a loooong time!!! And remember the book I won?? Well so far it is great it has taught me alot of things!!! The reason I haven't been on here in a while, is well, I have been extremely busy with school and just life in general oh and going on road trips lol!! But what I want to talk about today is surrendering even the good things.





The concept of trusting God to script our love story in His own perfect time, without manipulation on our part, is typically treated as ridiculous and naive in today's Christian world. The idea that everything--including the good dreams and hopes God has given us--must be surrendered back to Jesus Christ is often deemed extreme and unnecessary in modern Christianity. And shooing away mediocre men in order to wait for a man completely abandoned to God is viewed by many as a life long disappointment.





Many modern voices contend that since God obviously created marriage, and that marriage is clearly a good thing in Scripture, that we should not accept an extended season of singleness. They tell us we should view singleness as a curse of our society, not a purpose-filled opportunity from our loving Father.





But what is the pattern of the Gospel?





Christ said, "If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple." (Luke 14:26)





Paul said, "Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ." (Phil. 3:8)

Once upon a time, Christian me and women knew what it meant to lay down everything for the sake of Christ--including their desires for marriage and a family. Like Abraham surrendering Issac, they willing laid down there most sacred and priceless blessings upon the altar before God. They relized if He desired them to be married, He would make it clear in His own perfect time and way. But He must alwways come first, and He must always be implicity trusted. For some fresh information of this Bibical pattern, I encourage you to read some of the great love God-written love stories from the past, like Jim and Elisabeth Elliot (Passion and Purity), or Oswald and Bitty Chambers (Abandoned To God.) Stories such as these remind us that when Jesus Christ is in His rightful place, we dicover lasting true beauty and fullfillment. There is always unspeakable joy on the far side of surrender!

HEY!! I WON!!!

Hey girls, I WON THE GIVEAWAY!!!! I won the book called, The LOST ART of TRUE BEAUTY, By: Leslie Ludy. YAY!! I AM SO EXCITED!!! I'll let you all know how it is!

Thanks so much Natasha Atkerson!!!

Love,
Victoria

AWESOME BLOG!!!

Hey you guys!!!!!! Umm just a little qucik post....to let you know about an awesome blog!!!!!!!!
It's name is called A Modest Fashion Blog: What I wear, What I Do, And Why I Did It!!! I LOVE IT!!!! Well anyway I love that blog and just wanted to let you know that!! So go too it!!! LOL!!!!

Love,
Victoria

We Fight Not Against Men...

Okay...it seems that lately, all I'm doing is apologizing for not posting for so long, and I'm sorry again...it's just been one of those crazy months where extra time isn't easy to get at, and I can't find my camera transfer USB cord, so all the pretty summer pictures I've been taking I can't show you guys!




Hmmph. Depressing.




I suppose I have to resign to my fate as a few and far between blogger, I can now see how hard it is to fit the time in, which is unfortunate. I promise I will post more when fall gets here, when the craziness is done.




I know it's not fair too you guys, and I am so sorry :( I'm really gonna try to post more often, so could you guys hang with me? This is a weird time in my life, and I'm trying to figure out alot of stuff, so if I'm going a bit AWOL--I'm totally not abandoning you guys! :)









I've been trying to figure out who I am...and that's not easy stuff for a girl to handle. On one hand, I'm thirteen, I feel pretty close to being a adult, but in so many ways, I'm still a kid. I'd rather play then work, I love to daydream and dance to music, and just be silly like that. But I can't afford to be like that much longer. How do you get a growth spurt on something like growing up? How do i get from being silly and just whatever, do being serious and dedicated and mature and all that stuff. A career, and college life, all that stuff seems so far away. But I know that's no excuse. I need to prepare for all that and grow up...but how? I feel like such a loser for having a problem like, most homeschoolers I know are so out there and so prepared and know what they are doing with their life's. How come I can't be like that?


Why is it harder for me to be focused, to not get distracted and procrastinate?


Plus lately it seems like two parts of me have been warring the part of me that knows what I SHOULD be doing, and another just wants to do whatever, and is concerned with stupid stuff. I know I can't get where I want to go without hard work, but where do I really want to go?


I know I must sound like a spongy flob but I believe I should be totally honest in my blog.


I mean who wants to read a blog about a perfect person who has it all together? I know I have flaws, and I am perfectly ready to admit them too you guys.





It's weird with me. The reason I' kinda a flob in the growing up and stuff department, is for the longest time improving what I looked like was the most important thing to me. And everything else kinda fell by the wayside. I know that's not the right way to think like that, but that's just how it was for a long while, and I'm not gonna lie and say it isn't still impacting me today, even if it shouldn't.
I don't know what my mental block is, and why my appearance and self esteem and stuff seems to hold so much of my attention and focus, but it does, and I know it shouldn't.
When I think about it and talk about it, it just happens subconsciously. But I seriously do need to get a grip on it. I want my better side to win, my hardworking, dependable, focused and mature side, but it seems lately that my will is anything but strong, and my flesh is so weak.

So that's basically why I haven't been posting as much, just wrestling with alot of stuff inside, plus all the regular in and outs in life. I would appreciate some prayer...because I really do want my good side to win, and hopefully. With God's help, it will!!
As far as posting goes, I'm going to be doing smaller posts more often...can't really write novels everyday...but little tidbits I can give you guys :)
Sound good?
Sorry about going all crazy on you guys...but at least now you know why! :)
Love you guys!
Victoria

Blue Fog

Hey girls!


I'm sorry I haven't been writing as much, I have been insanely busy, especially this weekend...I'm still exhausted from it all. It was alot of fun though, going shopping with my Mom, and going fishing and meeting new people..that's always good, huh?
Well, the weekend was good, but I'm afraid today was one of those days that's rather ho-hum. You know those kinda days, where the weather is cloudy, and your hair refuses to corporate, and you have to wake up early to get to class, and you don't feel like doing any work?

I guess I could chalk it up to post--summer vacation blues, and the funny thing is, my summer vacation so far isn't all that relaxing, It is fun, hanging out with friends and shopping and all that good stuff, but I got pretty sick of constantly running around, staying up late and then randomly waking up early...my body must have been still in school-mode, because I just can't sleep in for the life of me!
So while it wasn't really a RELAXING summer vacation so far, it was fun, good and bad parts of t's alike.
I don't have anything super exciting to report, except a few things God has been showing me that I want to share with all you guys.

The main thing is...that I need to focus more. I tend to be kinda ADHD..I don't have the disorder, but I tend to be kind of space-y and easily distracted, especially when it comes to things like reading magazines instead of studying, or watching YouTube videos instead of cleaning my room, or whatever. Basically, I'm a procrastinator in alot of areas of life and I seriously need to quit.

Any advice for a girl who is having trouble focusing? I'm about to start eliminating some areas, like keeping my phone away from me so I won't be tempted to play around with it while doing school, and making a point to clean my room every night so it doesn't get all piled up, and making a point not to have a boyfriend while in high school so I wont get all distracted by boy issues. (Besides, it doesn't make sense to date in high school anyway. We're all about to go off to college...ther's no way the relationship would work, what with the different settings and separation and all that. It's just a decision I've made.) But I still end up staring into space, or listening to music or whatever. It's just the normal everyday stuff, boring assignments, and math and American goverment..it's all I can do to keep myself from spacing out and doing whatever.
I don't want to be a space-case lazy butt, and I'm trying to work on it. Any advice girls? Cause I'm not doing so hot with this self motivation stuff.

Another thing that's really been slamming me in the face lately is HOW much people don't notice the flaws I get so bothered about. Like at my cousins house last week, I kept moaning about how not clear my face was, and after one of my friends text me later that day, and told me how beautiful my face looked that day.
You could have knocked me over with a feather. Why can't i see what everybody else sees? Well, I guess God is just trying to tell me, loud and clear, " You don't have to worry about your skin. Just be confidant and be yourself, and it'll be okay."
And so far, it's been working...but then again, whenever God says something, it's always been true, why should I doubt him now?
So those have been the main things on my mind...now I'm off into the land of make-up!


Adios :)
Love and huggles,
Victoria

(fog pictures not my own.)

Oh Happy Day :)

Just. Look. At. That. Face.

How could anybody, ANYBODY, ever say no to that face?

Yeahh.. I am SUCH a sucker for my dog...I mean...those EYES and the perky little ears...

AW!!

Cool people can wear pirate patches...and totally pull it off!!! :)

And these faces...PRICELESS :P (P.S. Only a place like Sir Gooney's has pirate patches.)

So. Onto the story of the day :)

Well as most of you know, I am on summer vacation (out of school) and today has been fabulous. Sometimes I moan about being homeschooled, and how people give you weird looks when you tell them, and how you can't really be on sports teams, or miss out on stuff like seeing your friends every single day.

But really, when I think about it, I'm super lucky. I have so much freedom, and although I don't want to stereotype or generalize, I have typically found that homeschoolers ten to be more down to earth then most public schoolers I know. Of course, there are exceptions to rule, like my amazing friend Kristina, but most of the time, I hav found the above to be true.

Especially the guys. I dunno what it is, but the guys they are so nice and smart and SENSIBLE. Sensible sounds weird, but compared to most teenage guys I know,they are just really down to earth and smart. They don't take stupid risks, or brag about themselves, or talk about basketball all the time, or heaven forbid, talk about hot girls.

I can actually carry on a innteligent conversation with them, and they are so mature and it's just so refreshing!! Sorry about the slight rant...but i just get so tired sometimes of stupid guys. Their rude, and there totally self absorbed. It's so nice to be able to have guys as friends that you can actually TALK with, not just roll your eyes at.

OH WELL!!! LOL!!!

Well I can't wait till tomorrow...I'm going swimming!!

Loooove,

Victoria

Neon Shines Through Smokey Eyes

Have you ever felt a connection with a song? Like, everytime you listen to it, you get goosebumps, and it just speaks to you, somewhere deep inside?
Well. That's what the song in the last post does for me.

And yes...I know there is refrences to being drunk in there, please don't think I'm accepting that behavior, i just love the haunting lyrics, Dave Matthews heart stopping voice, and the guitar woven through it all. I don't know why, but I could listen to this song all day long.
Anyways just wanted to share that song with you guys, since it's my new obsession :)
I've been thinking about hair today, wanted to share my ideas with you guys!!

First idea: Side Pony.

My hair is super thick, so side ponys tend to look cute, I would straighten the top, and then define the curls on the bottom with curlers ora curling iron or something. It's a super simple, elegant. and I would make it cuter but addinga flower to it, too dress it up a little bit. :)

Another idea I've been thinking about.

The beautiful fishtail braid.

I would starighten all my hair, then braid it fishtail style. I love dresses that have the mermaid-y style, so I think both these hairstyles would look great with that, and i could do them both myself, so no need to spen big bucks on hair.

The first hair style is more formal and pretty, while the fishtail is sexy and carefree...I like them both, and shall try them both out to see which one I like best :) Gosh I just love occasions like weddings. It's so fun to get all fancy once...especially since it's something I rarely ever do.

As far as my day today? It's been good :) SO not much drastic news to report about me personally, exept that I can't wait till to tomorrow to go to the pool, and I apologize about the lack of photos...ack! There's just not enough time in one day! :'(

The days shoould be extended to at least 30 hours so we could get everything done, huh?

Have a great rest of the week!

Love,

Victoria

Neon Shines Through Smokey Eyes..Part 1

Butterfly

Had a poem lolling about in my head...decided to peep out into the real world :)





Butterfly





The light is too bright,


it cuts into her eyes,


Where is she?


Only known a world full of darkness,


Queit, soft and secure.


Now the air blows sharply against her skin,


Her newfound universe bekoning her in,


Just a child in a much to big world...





She grows lithe and limber,


Mind full of brightly reflected rainbows,


A prism, scattering happiness wherever she goes...


Some of that innocence is broken,


She loses some of that young spark,


A green stem that supported her for so long,


A blinding mask,


A desire to fit in,


Incapacitates her in it's terrible grip.





Someday, somewhere,


There's gotta be a choice,


A way to put her foot down,


Just say that's enough,


She's done with her own limitations,


Her own failed design,


She can't try anymore or she'll lose her ever-lovin mind...





So he wraps her in his chrysalis,
Spins her into his silky security,
Never letting go no matter how hard she struggles,
Cause he knows it's for her best...
He won't let her walk that road alone,
He knows that times are hard,
Left in the dark and binding garb,
Wondering how she will emerge,
For the better or for the worse?

Let her fly, let her soar,
Let her walk her steps,
She needs to grow up
And don't just leave it all to fortune and chance,
She'll work hard for every privledge,
She pleads to have,
A price tag is unwrapped...
Don't let go of him who let you fly,
Cherish the words he spoke in your mind,
Don't waste a day in what, in the end,
Cannot be had, or held into...
Choose wisley my little one,
Before away you'll fly....

Everybody's Dancin Dancin Crazy....

Hey girlios!! Yeah yeah I know, not a real word, but heyyy...it's called a poetic liscense and I use it ALOT :) My life has been full of randomness, summer, swimming, just general stuff :)
I have had kind of a decision\revalationtype of thannngg... :)

SO. TEH REVELATION.

(btw, I have been replacing the with 'teh' lately...no it's not a mispelling..it's pronounced how it's spelled and it's totally *awesome*)

Okay....back to business.

I have decided to learn how to be more...feminine?

I'm not sure what to call it.

But for pretty much all my life, I've been kind of a tomboy. You know, the whole barefooted, runnig around in the woods, made stuff out of mud, kind of deal.

In a way...I'm still like that. And sometimes..since i'm about to turn fourteen, it's kind of embarassing. I'm tired of never knowing what to wear (or ever really HAVING anything to wear) or what the heck to do with my hair, my face...just everything.

I'm going to be in highschool this coming year, im growing up..it's time to start looking like it!

*major shopping trip is predicted*

Hopefully tomorrow!!

And I have my cheeta eyes set on these leeeeetle prizes...

*hemhem* Cardigans from Old Navy

And dresses...gosh I need these so bad!! With summer comin and all..actually down here..summer is already here starting tomorrow!!

Aw :)

And SKIRTS...I have like no skirts.

And pretty much anything from American Eagle is totally amazing..

Sooo pretty :)

Plus, a shirt like this which will go with anything...ties the whole outfit together.

I don't know..I feel like my outfits are so random...I have bits and pieces from everywhere, but nothing that really goes together. I have a bunch of jeans..but I'm sick of wearing them.

My goal is to get a bunch of pieces that work together..more plannin my outfits then just randomly buying what I like then coming home and realizing it doesn't go with anything!

I love these options from Tilly's too :)

I also find myself buying the same thing over and over again..same colors, same cuts, same prints...I'm daring myself to go bold!

Like this bright red number..

Or this fun loose cut that I hardly ever wear...

(My..I do like Wet Seal!!)

Plus, I hardly have any of those little things that tie outfits together like tights...

and this cute little owl necklace...

Awww and rainbows too!! Haha

And of course..shoes... I just love these from Kohls'!!

And these sooo cute!

And these sneakers are awesome too!

And these are just beyond awesomely cool :)

Sorry that's alot of clothes to show you guys..I'm just really excited.

It feels like I'm turnin a new leaf, and it's a good leaf. I'm tired of being casual, and of not knowing how to dress the best I can. With a bit of shopping, and help with the ever handy Seventeen magazine.. (note: I am not supporting the magazines morals, which aren't great, but simply saying they have great style advice)

I'm going to change into a diva, don't worry...just a more polished, feminine version of me, and one I am very excited to get started on.

So that's my revelation!! Stay tuned for outfit pics after I go shopping!

Love,

Victoria :)

Musings Under a Spring Sun

Hello girls...gahhh has it really been over five days since my last post? Really? I know I have neglected you all, I aplogize...but it has been a truly stressful weekend, I can assure you.
I have been wrestling with alot of emotions inside of me, guilt, shame, unworthiness, and last night they all just came bubbling out when I was talking to my parents.
It was kinda like the lancing of an old wound, and it was hard, but it felt good. I had just been dealing with stuff like feeling different from everyone else, having a tough time in school and alot of other stuff.
It's just been hard...and I had no idea really what to write on here "Im emotionally overwhelmed?? Thus I am in my pajamas all day long and reading wayyyy to much?"
THAT wouldn't have been good. So I decided to save my post until I wasn't so stressed out....which is now :)
So, I took some pictures outside, spring has been coming in full force and everything is green and beautiful...just wanted to show you guys!! It's kinda a self portrait thing...

Lie upon the carpet of the world, green with a luster, borne of tears from the heavens...

Think thoughts that dared to never enter before, as you stare into the sunlight, the universe's core...

Laugh as the wind blows, dance as the earth revolves, sing as leaves tremble on their branches...

And whatever you do, don't take yourself too seriously, in the end what does it matter, if you conformed tot he wishes of the ever spinning culture, dreaming of tomorrow, today.

Sometimes you'll get confused, quite muddeled and befuddled, Trust the Father who had a plan, before the world drew it's first breath, and the sun first shot it's beams into a dark and void universe...

Know who you are, no matter what they say, you're a Child of The King, flaws can be mended, for nothing is impossible without God...

Just never, oh never, oh never forget...how much He loves you....

This is my message to all you girls out there, no matter what you are struggling with, HE LOVES YOU...never let go of that, no matter what you are dealing with.

I promise I'll be posting more...just giveing life some time to settle down.

I love you girls, so very very much :)

All my Love and God's Blessings,

Victoria

Reflections

When You Look Into The Future What Can You See?

What can I see?

Well, in 3 months I see myself turn fourteen.

FOURTEEN.

There is so much weight with that word.

I have been a teenager for one whole year!

Only 4 more years and i will be an adult!!

I don't even know how I feel about that!

I can wear any kind of make-up now.

It's all so new.
And yet SO much has happened to me in my thirteenth year that I never expected to happen.

It's truly been a journey, and at times it's been really really hard.

I have sunk into depression at time, but at other times, really happy.

God has carried me through no matter what, and it's been one of the best years of my whole life.

And it's all about to end, and a new chapter is about to start.

Who knows what next year will bring?

If I'm lucky, money, lots of new friends, and a deeper walk with God :)

But it still makes me think...

Every year of my life is different,

and every year I have new experiences and learn something new.

"Well, duh," you may be thinking, "Of course every year is different."

But I think it's cool that God decides to teach us new things and make each phase of our life unique and important.

Thirteen, was, and is, awesome

But...I'm ready for fourteen.

I'm ready to grow up, take more responsibility, and just be more serious about life in general.

Sometimes life is a joyride for me..but in the end, that's not life.

It's not reality.

I'm ready to become more independent, and be more responsible with that independence.

I'm ready for fourteen.

How about you guys?What major landmarks are you girls going through?

I'd love to hear. :)