Thursday, January 27, 2011


Hey girls...has it ever been a roller coaster of a day...and a week, now that I come to think of it. Filled with school, and a bunch of other stuff, it's been pretty action packed here!!

Anyways, I had something different on my mind when I set out to write this post.The topic at hand--doubt.
I seem to be doing alot of that lately, and it's something that's really getting me. I think I kinda have a trust issue...I always get so scared that I'm going to be let down when i make plans.. Take my skin as an example I worry, what if it's just a issue, what if it won't go away?
It even works that way in relationships too, I just have spells where I doubt and worry, and I really hate it I know it takes trust in God to get rid of doubt...but how do I do that? How do I trust in God? I want to, I want to just ignore my problems and trust. But again there's that nagging whisper in my ear..."problems won't go away if you just ignore them...what will trusting do? You have to take action!!" so that's when i do stupid things like pop pimples, text my friends non-stop because I need to know that they love me, or freak out for no reason at all. It's like my common sense has no defense against these attacks, it just backs down and let's doubt take control...I won't to stop that pattern...but how?
Just by trusting God? Can it really be that simple? I know inside my heart that God is the only one with true wisdom, and He has a plan for my life, and he does better then I do. I know that deep inside. So why is it so difficult to live it out?
But I just worry and worry till I get all stressed out
It creates a feeling of not being in control, an my human nature just hates that.
It wants to be in charge, it wants to know all the answers, it wants to know the end of the story. I know I should try hard to suppress that's just super difficult, I suppose.
I know my problems may not immediantly go away...but in the long run, I will have benifitted from trusting God this unfortunatlly, I'm very much a short term person--I like to see results--fast!! But I know that's not how real life works, with anything, including trusting God.
So that's my challenge..and really it should be all of our challenge, to trust God, no matter what the circumstances. Even if it takes forever and is really difficult.
Because if we can't have trust in our Creator, who can we have trust in? Nobody.
So I will trust in Him...and so should you!!
That's my little note for today..have a great week girlies!
Victoria :)
All my love, and God's blessings, Victoria <3

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